Lost Me

Was it as I aged

or when I was a child?

Did it happen willingly

or was it taken away?

Somewhere along the way

I have lost me.


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About John White

I've written off and on my entire life. It took years for me to finally take putting words together seriously. Now it's not, nor does it ever feel, like work. Writing daily has become habitual. No day is complete without words having appeared on the page.

Posted on March 25, 2015, in Poetry and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 68 Comments.

  1. Heart soothing poem John as usual:)

  2. Every time I find myself, I get complacent, distracted…next thing I know, I’ve wandered off and gotten lost again.

  3. I lost me when I accepted the lifestyle other people told me was the best way to live life. I found myself again when I threw their lifestyle into the fire, and started blazing my own trail, my own life, my own way.

    Thank you for sharing another great poem. I sincerely enjoy reading your thoughts and ponderings.

    • Thank you! If we dare to be ourselves there may be stares or even some cutting remarks but if we aren’t ourselves who will we be? It’s great to meet you!

      • I can personally say when I was not myself, I found “me” to be a poor reflection of the people I surrounded myself with and an invisible ghost of emotions that flowed far deeper than the superficial relationships I was busy maintaining in an attempt to be happy in a world I had no vested interest in and no real desire to be a part of.

        And when I put down their version of “me” and started being true to myself, I found I cared far more about the world I knew nothing about than I ever dreamed possible but only wanted to participate in under MY terms and conditions. It’s scary, lonely in truth, and frightening how little people think of love and true happiness. But I learned to value them properly for me and that made all the difference.

        It’s great to meet you as well. Sorry to ramble so much. 🙊

  4. It’s pretty easy to lose oneself nowadays, it certainly makes one wonder why that is so…

    This poem is exzellent!! 🙂

  5. Thank you John for speaking out,its one that needs more discussion,and less about general childhood

    • Thank you, Sheldon! I agree that it’s not just in childhood it’s anytime that we can stop being ourselves and start being who we think others want us to be.

  6. Its a challenge I face each day,’to keep me’,a task I fail to accomplish. All too often,I find myself living ‘a false self’.

    It feels like you had me in mind when you wrote this.

  7. You were hijacked, as we all were. From the beginning, by design, deception, and intent. Sadly, only few are finding their way out, or even care to find their way out.

    • We can all have the habit of hijacking ourselves by putting up a new facade to present to others. Finding and becoming comfortable with who we really are is crucial to happiness.

  8. I could not imagine. What is it if not you?

  9. The ledge crumbled beneath us. quite unawares…..

  10. It happens slowly at first, just a little bit, then more as it sneaks off a little more. Till suddenly you look at all the pieces that made you and wonder those used to be me.

    • Absolutely! That’s an excellent description. Who did I used to be and why did I ever try to be someone or something else? Why does anyone do it? Those are hard questions but when we look at those pieces can we put them back together?

  11. I like it and it so describes me. Very good!

  12. Reblogged this on INDRANEEL and commented:

    Was it as I aged

    or when I was a child?

    Did it happen willingly

    or was it taken away?

    Somewhere along the way

    I have lost me.

  13. As sands of time passing watched,
    as somwhere you hid away..lost

  14. i love your style – it gets right to the core, thank you

  15. What’s left of me hears you…thanks.

  16. when you know you are lost.. that’s the point when you are not lost.

  17. Liked this poem John. We can take losing a lot of things in our life, but losing ourselves means trying to be someone else. That’s more work than it’s worth. Nicely phrased. Thank you John for checking out my recent post. Much appreciated. :O)

  18. I lose myself a lot, but I’m so refreshed when I return. Great ponder John.

  19. I read that and thought, ‘That’s it?’.. then I tilted my head as I looked at the screen, and thought ,’Yes, that’s exactly it’ so simple but so true. im going through a divorce and your words have crossed my mind many times.

    • Thank you so much! i’m glad you enjoyed it and that it spoke to you. Divorces can be messy and painful. Unfortunately, I speak from experience. But when it’s all over and you’ve healed and you’re ready to put that sad chapter behind you, you’ll find that you are stronger than you’ve ever been. It’s hard but it’s worth it to gain that much strength. Best of luck to you and great to meet you!

  20. Thank you for the follow ❤ I wonder if at some point in life, the dwindling self finds itself again. Fuck growing up.

  21. jason c. segarra

    it seems that the longer we love the more lives we carry out. each stage in life is like a different world, almost. we do lose who were in that we leave a little of that person behind at each station in this existence. time to send out a search party…

    great read, sir!

    • jason c. segarra

      I meant to say live, not love in my first sentence. that’s what happens when I attempt typing early in the morning!

    • Thanks, Jason! My search party has been out for some time but I’m not certain what they’ll return with. 🙂 It’s great to meet you!

  22. Poignant and eloquent. I can completely relate to this right now.

  23. Christopher Black

    A very good Haiku -yep, what happened to us all?

    • Thanks, Christopher! Did I somehow wind up with an inadvertent haiku in there? lol Well, what happened to us is we got older and changed, it appears. It’s great to meet you!

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